I often find myself feeling a bit down about my current situation in life — I’m totally freaked out by the profession I’ve chosen to go into, I’m away from the friends I’ve grown so close to for months at a time, I’ve never traveled anywhere notable, and there is absolutely nothing happening involving my love life.
There’s so much I want to do, so many places I want to go, so many experiences I want to have. And, often, I feel afraid that I’m falling behind — that I’m never going to get to spend a summer interning abroad in London or that I’m never going to go to Disney Land/World with a bunch of friends for vacation or that I’m never going to get that position at that publication that I have been vying for for months. I grow fearful that life is going to pass me by and I’m going to miss all of my opportunities to do the things I want.
But then I stop and think: I’m a 19 year-old girl who just ended her freshman year of college. I’m still a teenager. My life has barely begun.
And the thought of that is so exciting.
I have my whole life ahead of me. I have three whole years (possibly four, if I go to graduate school) to spend a summer or a semester studying abroad. I have all the time in the world to find people I can relate to and make new friends and fall in and out of love. I have years and years to work and take jobs and change jobs and work my way up. I have my whole life to travel the world.
The beauty of it is, it’s all inevitable.
Things are going to happen. Up until now my life has consisted of being a wannabe journalist in Missouri, but it won’t be this way forever. I’m going to have excitement and adventures and experiences that will make people want to read my autobiography (if I ever write one, which I doubt 100%). Life is just beginning, and it’s stretched out before me as this big, beautiful, ambiguous path with many lovely twists and turns and nooks and crannies.
The next time you’re feeling down, or that your life is “hella dull,” or that you’re not doing the things you want to be doing, take a deep breath: life will happen.
“I wanted movement and not a calm course of existence. I wanted excitement and danger and the chance to sacrifice myself for my love. I felt in myself a superabundance of energy which found no outlet in our quiet life.” -Leo Tolstoy